Dear whatever this feeling is

Please go away. I’m tired of feeling like I’m not enough. I’m tired of feeling like I’m alone when I have people who love me. Please just go away. I want to be happy. I want to be carefree. I don’t want to have this endless rollercoaster ride of emotions. I hate having these great days where I’m confident and happy and on top of the world just to come crashing down to this. This miserable dark lonely place. Everything makes me feel like crying. I feel so alone. I want to feel like I matter because I know I do but you, this feeling I get, make me feel worthless and like I’m just a speck. I know I’m loved I know I’m important. So please stop making me feel like I’m not. Just leave me alone so I can be happy.