I live with my narcissistic father and he’s always hurting me emotionally through what he says to me. I have done some stupid shit in my life and I know that I shouldn’t have done it but I just did and I kind of regret it. My dad makes me feel like absolute shit and I want to yell at him that he doesn’t understand that when I look into my mirror every morning and when I see my reflection in the glass of my classroom, i’m truly disgusted by what I see... He keeps on telling me that I I’m a spoiled attention loving asshole a lot, even though I would rather lock myself up in my bedroom and not come out again because I’m afraid of what he will do. When I used to snap back at him and he turned to look at me I could see the anger in his eyes and felt like he would hit me and that is what has me so scared of him because I donMt know if he will eventually hit me.... I’m slowly giving up and I think that maybe someone can maybe help me, but somehow I feel like I’m way to deep to be saved. I’m just so tired of always the one who’s at fault and always hurting and wanting to finally be gone..