UPDATE: Thank you so much to everyone that commented! I never expected to get so much positive feedback on the topic. I apparently just have some seriously judgmental people in my life. I added the reasons why I don’t want to breast feed only because so many people in my life expect an explanation on why I don’t want to and then try to judge my reasons. My husband and I talked about it more and decided that I won’t be breast feeding. He said he would support any decision I made but he understands why I don’t want to. I appreciate everyone who commented kind words and reassured me I wasn’t doing the wrong thing. I know I will be giving my child the love and nutrients he needs without giving up what I think is right for us.

I have decided that I don’t want to breastfeed but I feel so guilty about it. After talking to the WIC breast feeding consultant, my husband and my mom I’ve decided I just don’t feel like it’s something I want to do. I know I’ll probably be shamed for it but I feel like fed is best. I have three key reasons I don’t feel comfortable breast feeding

1) I don’t feel comfortable breast feeding in public even with a nursing cover

2) We can’t afford a pump and WIC won’t rent one without a health reason

3) My husband works 3rd and I’m afraid to breast feed at night while I’m home alone. Mainly because I’m afraid I’d doze off and accidentally smother the baby.

Does this really make me a bad mom? My grandma keeps telling me how my baby will never be healthy and that the only way I should go is breast feeding. I was never breast fed and I was a very healthy baby. I just feel like I should be doing what I’m most comfortable with. I’d never let my child starve but deep down I know breast feeding isn’t for me. I’ve noticed in the last few years moms have been shamed and judged so harshly if they use formula. So many people ask if I’m going to breast feed and when I say no you’d think I murdered their puppy. I just don’t want to be seen as a bad mother for just trying to make sure the baby and I both are comfortable and happy.