Re edit*** Thank yall so much💟

Edit*** Thank you guys for the advice and to answer a question that was asked, yes he is the first guy I've been with since the abuse.

I was sexually abused for years by someone close to me. I am now out of that situation but everytime I do something sexual with my boyfriend I always end up thinking about what happened to me in the past and I end up in a depressed state. Ik it bothers my boyfriend that I'm always depressed after sex but idk what to do... Any suggestions? I tried therapist but she wanted to put me on anti-depression pills and anti-anxiety pills..