well, I guess we aren’t together anymore.

my boyfriend, who I was with for nearly a year broke it off with me earlier today.

He explained that managing a relationship would build more stress as he claims he will barely have time for me anymore since he wants to take dual enrollment (combination of college and high school classes). I told him I would wait for him upon hearing that. I tried remaining optimistic. We will both be seniors (almost 18), and we will move out from our homes to adulthood. We are both interested in pursuing higher education. We could deepen our relationship from there. I saw the situation he was dealing with as a simple obstacle course. No biggie, right? If I wait for him, we could realistically plan for a future together.

To my dismay, he told me it’s best for us to move on. Those smalls words completely ruptured the perfect image I had of us. In a blur, it was as if my whole world came crashing down. I always believed that we were unstoppable—that, if we put our heads and hearts together, we could face adversity every step of the way.

I know what some of you might say, teen relationships don’t typically last, as the rumor goes; however, I really did love this guy. I was head over heels for him, and I knew he was too. I trusted him. He trusted me. Our relationship was built on skyscrapers of promises, and imagine a wrecking ball completely annihilating that same foundation into nothing but specs of dust and broken pieces of glass. It makes me so so devastated that our relationship ended with a few discouraging words from him. I seriously believed the promises he told me. I seriously believed he would stay with me every step of the way. I seriously thought that he would be more stubbornly adamant like I am. I was deadass about waiting for him. I was set to do it. He told me we both had to move on past each other. It hurt being told that. Just a few days ago, we were telling each other how much we loved each other.. and now he’s waving me off. I feel so hurt. Is waiting not worth it? Is it not worth trying to change his mind? I told him I would respect what he wanted, but this is all so sudden...