All I want is some helpšŸ™

I left school three years ago after I had my son, right before my tenth grade year. Ever since my mother has been nagging me to go get my GED which is something I planned on doing, but due to my anxiety I kept putting off, it takes me awhile to talk myself out of this stuff.

Anyways my sister and mother are the only two people that could drive me there, I donā€™t have a car, or permit. I donā€™t have any friends, and I donā€™t really have any of my family, just my brother and sister in law and well they live the next state over. I asked them SEVERAL times if it would be a problem because I didnā€™t want to go and sign up and not be able to do it, like I said it takes a lot for me to talk myself into doing these things and I didnā€™t want to do it for no reason. They both said yes it wonā€™t be a problem on the days one couldnā€™t take me the other one would, I was also told Iā€™d get taken to get my permit since i need an ID to take my GED tests.

Yā€™all it has been two weeks in and Iā€™m getting no help! My mother griped last week because I took too long (even though I kept telling her it was to sign up and take my placement test so I should get my sister to take me and well mom wanted to.)

Then I got an email from the nice ladies at the center where the classes are and was told that I needed to come at the beginning of this week to finish signing up for them, because they got in their forms for this year so I needed to do the updated ones.

I still havenā€™t went.

My mom promised and promised. My sister has been ignoring me ever since she said she would help.

I just donā€™t understand, my mom griped because Iā€™m not doing anything with myself but how can I when I have no support from my own family?? Also I live in the country so we donā€™t have buses that I can take or anything like that and I have NO friends.

And the thing is, my classes are online so literally the only reasons I have to go down there are to finish signing up, to take my pretests once I finish the classes, and then to eventually take the ā€œbig tests.ā€

So I just needed to run down there to finish some things.

I asked my mother about it this morning and she turned around and basically started blaming me, I canā€™t do anything without feeling like Iā€™m being a burden. She wonders why I stay in my room locked away from everyone.

I cried most of the night last night and even ended up having a panic attack, all because my family refuses to take stuff I do seriously and I just wanted to start working on bettering my life, for myself and kid. Itā€™s all Iā€™ve wanted and now I have no help and donā€™t know what to do.

Iā€™ve decided to email the lady and tell her that Iā€™m leaving the classes because I mean I canā€™t get there, might as well wait and get a job first so I can get my permit, license, then a car.

And as twisted as it sounds I think my mother does these things on purpose, I think she doesnā€™t want me to leave so she holds me in in anyway she can.

She helped in a role of completely destroying my relationship with my sons dad, sheā€™s ruined several opportunities for me to move out and finally start on my own, I had a car that my pawpaw left for me when he died , then she turned around and sold it, anytime I try to progress my life in any way she rips it from me and then brainwashes me into it all being my fault.

Also I live in Alabama so Iā€™m not considered an adult here until I turn 19 so that prevents me from a lot.

**Adding on- I do help quite a bit around here in any way that I can. She generally just tells me what needs to be done around the house and I do it, with no complaints.

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Iā€™d sit down with your mom again and gently tell her that you need her help right now and that her support during this time would be very appreciated. Do some things around the house for her (if you donā€™t already) like extra chores you never think about doing, just to take her mind off extra stresses she has. If you want help, you have to give a little too. Hopefully that will make her wake up and help you.