Angel baby naming

I was 15/16 age doesn’t matter as I should of know better and I lost a baby early in pregnancy in April 2015 which was 3 years ago I lost the baby because I did something stupid went to a friends party and said I would have one drink and I ended up getting out of control and going over board on the drinks and when I went home I started to bleeding heavily a couple of hours later and was in so much pain and just sat and laid there so mad at myself for what I had done and I kept saying to myself I’m so sorry baby , I couldn’t stop crying and I know it’s all my fault I just wish I could go back in time and change what happened.every time I think about that baby I just cry and I know this is normal but I cry uncontrollably and just want to bring that baby back and I also think about what the baby would of been such as the gender as it was too early to know the gender and all the what’s ifs. since I lost that baby I have been buying baby clothes uncontrollably some days I can stop myself but the next I say to myself I must and then I buy them and say to myself what have I done. Some days or months I can go without buying baby clothes others I can’t. I miss that baby so much. Recently someone said to me naming the baby I lost might help. Will it help? I’m also scared when I do get pregnant again in the future if I’ll lose that baby too. Since losing that baby I’ve also been feeling like I need to get pregnant and have a baby that thought only comes round everyone once in a while, I’ve also been have dreams every night or every once in a while where there is a pram which is empty or where I have a sweet little baby and then I wake up and all I’m left with is what the dream is or was .Since I’ve got with my now boyfriends my mindset has changed to I can wait to have a baby as I want one or more with him .Sorry if this doesn’t make any sense. I am now 19 and feel like I don’t deserve to ever get pregnant again. I never went doctors to confirm the pregnancy I only saw a couple of test I was so scared to go doctors and I didn’t I know wish I had of gone doctors