Misplaced hope....?

I got this lovely hand dawn picture as a gift for a friend from my support group who is expecting her rainbow after a stillbirth and 2 miscarriages. I also at the same time got one for myself, we aren’t even TTC again yet after losing our son and aren’t sure whether we will ever be able to have a healthy baby, is it just wishful thinking that I’ll get to hang it in my house one day 😕