Idk. I just don't know. sometimes I'm confused about my boyfriend. I don't know if we should be together or if we're going to last. I silently talk myself out of the feelings I have for him. but these are my truths. I'm so scared to lose him. I picture the rest of my life with him. he makes me happy and emotional. He is so kind and caring and so respectful and I love him. atleast I think I do. this is my first relationship and I'm 20. im so caught up in how everybody else defines love I get scared and convince myself that it's not love. but I'll tell you one thing, I don't know how to pray and I rarely attempt it. but everyday I ask God to let me keep him.