I've been TTC for over 4 years with 1 miscarriage. Had surgery and have been on/off clomid, peeing on strip after strip after strip for years, and logging everything on apps. Today is supposed to be my period day... everytime I feel a cramp I pray "please no, no period". Too scared to go to the bathroom and check. I hate telling my husband month after month that we're not. We both (like all of you) just both want to be parents. Just needed to express this, thanks for listening.