This hurts so bad

Im so sad of another month down where I’m not pregnant and everyone else seems to be. It’s everywhere you look.

I hate that I’m so jealous that my boyfriend of 7 years has a son by a previous relationship. They didn’t even try it was one drunken night .This makes me such a shitty person when I just want to feel normal.

God what’s wrong with me?

The worst part is I cry all alone because no one else will understand and I have no one to talk to.