Bod issues pls help

Hey dudes. Soooo I’ve had many MANY problems with my bod over the years. From childhood morbid obesity, to losing a lot of weight at once, to not feeling like I’m conventionally attractive, and all the shit that comes with that nonsense. For the past few years though I’ve kinda broken out of my shell and gained some bad bitch confidence. I’m wearing shorts, crop tops, taking pictures of myself— all things I hadn’t done for the first 16 years of my life. Hell I cut and shaved my hair! go me! Here’s the bad part though. I’m still not where I want to be, but my mom pushed me to the edge today. See I still have never worn a 2 piece bathing suit matching set cause it’s been too much. But this is MY YEAR, and I picked out this cute bikini set. I tried it on, showed mom, confident and feelin hot. And she ripped me apart (even if she didn’t mean to). Making comments about my butt, my stomach, god I felt like I was in 6th grade again. I’ve been crying all day. Help ya girl out with ways to get out of this mindset that my bod’s not good enough?