So I’ve been seeing this guy for a while now and I really really like him! He’s funny, smart, kind, respectful, handsome as hell, and in the military. Well about a week ago he texted me that he got orders to Korea for a whole year and is leaving in roughly 2 weeks. He mentioned that he does want to try the whole “long distance part” however it does take trust, communication, and loyalty....which I completely agree on! So I take every opportunity I can to hang out and enjoy time with him. The last time we hung out he ended it short because his bros texted him to come hang out and that’s what he did. I was driving home so upset not knowing how to feel but it felt like a slap in my face since him and I planned to hang out a week in advance.

Moving forward, he’s in Texas rn visiting some family so I don’t expect to hear from him which is completely fine. However I accidentally came across something on my activity feed on instagram of him following this total pornstar looking chic (who mine as well not wear anything) down in TX. I am beyond hurt and at a loss for words right now because it’s making wonder HOW DID YOU EVEN FIND HER?? And the other thought of him hooking up with her. 😪 I feel very lied to and feel like I betrayed myself for even believing that he liked me when he called me beautiful, holds my hands, and kissing me and stuff. It makes me feel like I still wasn’t enough and that it’s kind of in a way cheating, PLUS I don’t think he knows I saw it. I see him again on Tuesday and I think I am going to end it with him, because what girl wants a guy who is going to pull stunts like this and act like everything is okay and we have to accept it cause “he’s being a guy” NO!