I’m so tired of everything.

I got pregnant weeks before my best friend so we were due weeks apart. I ended up losing the pregnancy at 11 weeks in November 2017.

Since then I might have had a chemical pregnancy back in April.

I’m so done. I’m sad and depressed and all I want is a baby and it’s been so freaking hard to get pregnant. It’s been a little over a year and a half since we started trying. I’m 99% sure I’m out this month and next month my hubby will be out of the state during my fertile week. The following cycle will be the same month we got pregnant with our first. I’m just feeling really emotional and sad. I feel like its never going to happen. We’ve tried “not trying”, we’ve tried OPK’s & preseed, I’ve tried vitamins, essential oils, acupuncture, we’ve tried everything. I just want my rainbow baby. I want to start our family. It sucks more than ever seeing my best friend with her healthy baby growing everyday knowing mine should be just about the same age.