Has anyone dealing with infertility had that one christian couple that are literally just perfect? There is a girl at my old church that is as sweet as can be,her and her husband are nearly perfect and it's driving me nuts in the way that I feel like God doesn't love me all because I can't be the perfect christian. They both serve in the church with the youth group,both are teachers, had a gorgeous wedding,and they have been married less than 2 years and are now expecting twin boys (she's also adopted and an only child so her parents are spoiling their grandbabies already with anything and everything she wants) She's literally gorgeous and amazing and soft spoken and sweet,but there's a small part of me that can't help but wish that something,anything would go wrong with her life simply because they seemed to be blessed beyond measure and yet here I am fighting for a promise I was given a few months ago from God about having a baby soon. I really can't seem to get over my jealousy at how she seems to get everything she prays for in the blink of an eye. I need all the prayers I can get to resist the devil and not hate her for everything she gets so easy that I have been desperately fighting for for 19 months for. I constantly feel like I obviously can't do anything right. I love my new church and have joined the bus ministry and the door greeter ministry,I started dressing modestly 2 years ago,stopped wearing jewelry here recently and even started cutting out gluten to live closer to how God wants me to be,but it feels like no matter how much I sacrifice,I'm no closer to the promise of a baby, while she is over there essentially just living her every day life and getting everything she wants. How much more will God ask me to give up before he see's that I'm completely willing to be molded to become the person he wants me to be have a baby?????😭😭😭😭