I just want to go on a VENT here and all are welcome to join

Lizzy

So I started TTC in 2010ish, it took me 2.5 years with a chemical and a miscarriage to finally conceive my daughter (she will be 5 in November). Me and her donor are no longer together. So my hubby and I are kind of TTC baby of our (not trying) etc. like if it happens, okay kind of thing (this is like a two year thing for us) . I feel like crap, I think I have a faint positive on frer but it is one of those kind of squinters which annoys me, frer used to be so reliable, and with my daughter I had gotten a faint pos when I was due for AF but I didn't notice until a week later after I had gotten a dark bfp.... I literally feel pregnant, all of my same symptoms are around which aren't really a lot but I've got serious food aversion to everything I go to eat and it's driving me nuts!!! Anyway, I hate first response tests now, AF due tomorrow and I swear if I pee on a stick and it doesn't come up positive, I'm gonna just throw my whole body away 😂😂😂.