8weeks.. thinking of abortion..

I’m 8 weeks pregnant and I’m starting to think about abortion. Me and my partner were trying for a baby but started to go through a mega big rough patch in our relationship and actually stopped trying for a baby, deep down i wanted one but we both knew it wasn’t right for the situation we was in. I then fell pregnant unplanned and have told a few close family members but me and my partner haven’t gotten any better like places say a baby will bring you together, if anything the arguments and tension is worse.

I hate to say it but I’m really contemplating on an abortion, I’ve had one when i was younger i was forced into it by an ex and it fucked me up for ages so i know that maybe i should but deep down i really am starting to despise this baby. But at the same time id love to keep it and I’m excited I’ve always wanted a baby and so has he!

I really don’t know what to do and I’d love advice...