Is it normal to not want to live anymore?

Lately, I’ve just had no desire to live. I’m 18 starting to have to pay my own bills, start college, work way more. I just don’t want to do it. I don’t want to live anymore. I couldn’t kill myself even if I really wanted to but I just don’t want to do life. Don’t want to go to college or work for the rest of my life. I just want to slip away.