😔 about my babies gender feeling guilty

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We found out we’re having another girl && MY FEELINGS ARE SOO HURT! I felt terrible and embarrassed that I was as visibly upset at the ultrasound.. I cried for hours, I feel so bad for being upset because as a mother all I really care about is having a healthy child and I’m going to love her with all of my heart . But I can’t help how I feel.. I swore I was having a son I had a name and everything picked out for him.. I think I’m more hurt because my SO and I have decided this will be our last child, so to know I’ll go my whole life without a son just really kills me. 😞 I’m feeling a little better now a few days have passed but deep down I am still a little sore, just glad we didn’t have a gender reveal I would’ve been embarrassed for life if my whole family would’ve seen my reaction.