I’m so exhausted...physically, mentally, and certainly emotionally. I feel like I keep getting knocked down over and over. I can’t stay motivated and nothing seems to change that. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for over a year now (starting our 15th month of ttc). There are a few things working against us and unfortunately they are things we can’t change. His morphology is 3% and my AMH is 1.49 and I’m 31. One thing I can change however, is my weight. I know I need to lose weight, and I know it would probably help with getting pregnant, but being told by the fertility specialist that he’d like to see me lose 15-20lbs and confirming, out

loud, what I thought has now added more pressure. I know 15-20 isn’t much in the grand scheme of things, bc I really need to lose about 50 to be considered healthy, but hearing it just sucked to put it simply. I’m frustrated, and stressed out, and down, and feeling hopeless on this journey to lose weight, get healthy, and have another baby. Yes, we do have one beautiful little girl and she

will be three this year and we are thankful everyday for her. She has started asking for a baby brother or sister and all we can do is smile and laugh and hold back the fear and feeling at potential failure at giving that to her. We want it for her but also for us. Where do I go from here? Idk, but I’m trying to stay as positive as I can. I’m trying to refocus my energy into weight loss and health. I love long hair, but the stress has taken a toll on it and it has gotten so thin so I had it cut about 5-6 inches shorter. If you feel better you do better right? Sorry this was so long, but I felt like I’ve been holding it in for so long and had to let it out. Here’s to month 15 of ttc🙏🤞