Dear ladies I need some advice...

I am 20 and I have been with my boyfriend for over 4 years. Overtime, he has confessed to me he loves BBW women (nothing wrong with larger ladies at all!!). However, over the years he makes his point of how he will never go back to skinny, I would look better if I was larger, tries to show me porn of larger girls, comments on how I could change my body for him, and now he shows me pictures of other larger girls in comparison to how sexy I would look if I was like them.

(Besides this degrading fact he is the best boyfriend I have ever had.)

NOW, he recently is working as an apprentice for a muralist. I was cleaning our apartment today and I came across our general note pad we leave around. In this note pad on the very first page, I made a section for us to write love notes to each other so after a long day we can read them. (Cute right?) Well, I flipped to our love letter page and right behind it I saw this sketch.... it literally tore my heart into shreds.

All of his comments over the years, showing me porns, expressing his desire for a larger girlfriend, and now DRAWING OUT his fetish is really weighing heavy on my heart...

What should I do? He claims its "just art" but he could have picked a million things to draw. I'm feeling extremely depressed and insecure about myself. I need advice please, anything.

Sincerely,

Hanna