so let me just start by saying that I am pretty positive that I have been dealt a shitty deck of cards when it comes to relationships. I was in one for over 4 years, cheated on multiple times, and still stayed until I was physically abused. This was over a year ago. I have been slowly starting to get back out there, but all guys want is sex !! Which I don’t mind because ya know, but I’m ready for a relationship. I’m tired of crying over guys who make you feel special for weeks, sleep with you, then never speak to you again. I recently was talking to someone who had come home from a deployment, he begged me to go see him, we spent the whole weekend together, now I can barely get a response at all. I haven’t felt this way about a guy in so long, but I’m trying to keep my mouth shut with my feelings because I don’t want the typical “I don’t want a relationship” scenario. Some days I feel like it’s me who is the problem.

Ugh srry for venting here, I just feel like I can’t talk to my friends about any of this.