I think I have a hemorrhoid in my butt because I can't physically see one but Over the course of the week I've been having pains while sitting or doing certain things. today me and my boyfriend had anal sex (despite me telling him no because of prior pain due to the thing) and after about 2 minutes I couldn't take it anymore I was in so much pain. he went to the bathroom to grab toilet paper and handed it to me. I looked at him confused and asked what it was for. he said "there's a lot of lube, here wipe it off" and I was like "no I'm fine I don't need to" and he turns me on my side, lifts my leg up and wipes my butt!! in my mind I was like *wtf is he doing wiping my ass. I thought that some small amount of 💩 was there which wouldn't be surprising, clearly it's my ass. and I was like why'd you do that and he didn't answer. and then we continued regular vaginal sex afterwards. but I went to the bathroom after he'd left for work and I found out it wasn't 💩 it was blood! I was freaking out I was like why didn't he tell me I was bleeding?! I'm in a lot of pain rn and I texted him and asked him why he didn't tell me. still waiting on the reply. I'm very pissed. thank god I'm going to the dr tomorrow.

update side note: his penis didn't go from my butt to my vagina, I always make sure to tell him to switch out condoms or was his penis before putting it in my vag.

UPDATE: thank you ladies for the hard truth and the support. my doctor told me no more and I have since spoken the same words to him that we can't do this till it goes away and when and if we do again to take better precaution. it's been very embarrassing the last few days as I don't even want to be naked in front of him because I'm embarrassed of it, it has become external which it might have been the whole time but it was small before and this time made it bigger. ik he sounds like an asshole, 100% agree. I have clear signs when I'm uncomfortable with something but I never am able to mutter the words no almost 95% of the time. it's whatever, thank you once again