Need experience with a girl SO BAD

Okay so I’m still a virgin (never been in a relationship) I’m considering myself straight as I don’t really see myself falling for a girl BUT I have this huge need to sleep with a girl. To the point I even thought of paying for adult services 😩 I know there are plenty of lesbians out there but I’m too shy and I don’t know how to find a girl to have some fun.

I’ve thought about my best friend because I fantasise about her... a lot.......... and I don’t know how to do it because I don’t want to make things awkward or make her disgusted? I dont know how to bring it up without embarrassing myself. I’ve thought about playing some drinking games and see what she’s up to but then again I don’t want to do anything without being fully sober. I just really want her to go down on me and I want to suck her nipples and lick her asshole so bad 😩💦

Anyone ever did anything with the best friend? How did it start? How did you mention it? What happened?