prenatal depression

i don’t know what’s going on with my boyfriend and i but i’m a complete train wreck.... we lost our first baby on valentine’s day, and fell pregnant again i found out april 20th. before finding we were happy, but i remember the morning i told him like it was yesterday. it was before he went to work, and he just wasn’t for it anymore. here i am, now almost 19 weeks and i cry every day. i have no energy to do anything, i’m just depressed. he basically left me, and barely talks to me anymore but he acts so happy around his family. when we’re not around his family it’s like i don’t exist. i was talking to his sister and she kept saying that even when he talks to their mom he doesn’t make it seem like anything is wrong between us. he hurts my feelings almost every day with the ignoring, smart remarks, putting me down, just everything and i don’t know what to do anymore. i don’t have any friends, my parents don’t talk to me and it’s like he’s all that i had but we really turned upside down when i got pregnant. he treated me nothing like this with the first pregnancy. i’m beyond stressed out. i know it isn’t good, but i can’t help it. i lost everything when i got pregnant again .... even someone that i thought would be here the most. i thought this is when i’d be the happiest, but i’m far from it and don’t know how to fix it. i’ve tried talking to him about us, or anything really and he just isn’t interested. he curses me out when i get too “annoying” i guess. i don’t try to be, i just wanna know where i’m going wrong or went wrong after we were literally TRYING for this baby. i’m tired of not knowing what’s wrong with him but i scroll on here looking at everyone’s posts of their happy babies trying to realize what ill finally have in december but it feels so long before that... i burst in tears almost every time i get time to come around or think of anything or when i feel this baby kick i just get a huge cloud of emotions over me. i seriously need help 😔😔😔