My boyfriend is the kind of person that thinks its especially funny to fuck with people and he especially likes to bother and get under my skin. I try not to let it bother me and most times it doesn’t I just laugh but sometimes I am not in the mood for that. I can be a bit of a control freak so he tends to trigger that a lot he thinks its funny.

Anyways I was putting my puppy to bed, training him to stay put. This was after I asked my boyfriend to help me move a big mirror that i painted and he didn’t want to help me move it because he gets lazy. I had to move it because it’s important to me and didnt want my dog to scratch it anymore than he already did. I told him this but he still wouldn’t move it so I managed on my own. When I got back I said thanks sarcastically and was putting the dog to bed. To bother me he starts calling my dog over which makes it hard to train him and is really disrespectful to me to be honest.

So I eventually give up and let him call the dog and I get settled into bed. He gets up and started tickling my feet excessively which I was not enjoying at all. He wouldn’t stop when I said stop. He kept tickling for what seemed like forever I kept shouting please leave me alone. He then gets on the bed and smothers me and grabs me so i can’t break free of his hold. I was sweating and frankly REALLY REALLY wanted to be left alone. He then rolls us over and puts me on my belly with him on top of me and my head on a pillow and i was stuffy and couldnt breathe well I started to panic I just wanted to be left alone. He starts calling me dramatic and when I break loose I just really wanted to go to the washroom to run cold water on myself to get rid of the sweat. He wouldn’t let me pass him and threw my phone under the bedroom door started telling me to get out. I didn’t want to get out, I wanted to lock myself in the washroom and wash myself. I wasn’t scared but more felt violated as my wishes were not being respected.

So I sit on the edge of the bed and he begins to shout at me that im dramatic. For screaming before for the tickling. He doesn’t want the neighbours to hear me screaming like that.

So he starts turning red and VIOLENTLY starts punching and slapping himself in the head. I was so scared. I kept putting my hands on his face begging him to stop. He kept repeating “this is what you want, this is what you look for this kind of drama”. I got so sad and worried I didn’t like to see him hurting himself. He punched me in the head and slapped me too but I don’t think he did it purposefully just to slap my hands away from trying to make him stop. He grabs me and shoves me on the bed. He shuts the light off and seems like he’s going to sleep. I instantly get up to lovk myself in the bathroom. (The only room with a lock) He gets up and pulls me away and locks himself in there. He is singing in the shower now and has music playing loud and my head really hurts it’s pounding. I’m on the couch in the living room and I’m crying I can’t get that image out of my head of him hitting himself. It makes me sad because he makes me feel like its my fault this happened. And he is showering and singing like nothing happened and won’t even check on me to see if I’m okay. I don’t know what to do.

My dog became hysterical the whole time barking at him to protect me and wouldnt calm down when I brought him to the living room with me his nerves were built up he kept jumping everywhere barking chewing my covers. Mind you he is an EXTREMELY calm and obedient dog who never barks.

Idk what I am saying I just need someone to talk to or some kind of feedback I don’t know if I deserved that for being dramatic I just really wanted him to leave me be