I feel so bad for wishing this pregnancy away

Alex

im nearly 17 weeks, Ive got about 3 baby items and found out im.having a baby boy, which i am.thrilled about! 😍 after 2 girls im.super excited to shop for him and spoil him...but on the other hand im sodding misserable! im still feeling sick, my iron is low, im.gaining weight like a polar bear! everyone around me is having their babies and Im just wishing away this whole pregnancy dying to hold my son in my arms!