Going on 36 weeks and I’m just so exhausted 😭😭😭 Waking up at 5am every morning to get myself ready for work and to get my 4 year old and 3 year old ready to go to their grandparents’ house for the day.

Literally no help from SO who is getting home from work when we are waking up. He use to help at bath time, dinner, and all the in betweens but since I’ve been pregnant with baby #3 he is NO help. He thinks because he works midnights that he doesn’t have to help me do anything because he’s sooo tired and his schedule is sooo rough and ‘carrying a baby isn’t that hard’ but yet he gets home at 530am and will stay up till 1pm alone doing what he pleases and text me while I’m at work to wake him up at 8pm while I deal with the kids alone when I get home.

I just want to cry. We are both off on the weekends and I legit begged him to watch the girls for a couple of hours this last Sunday so I could just go to the store alone for once and he refused, went to our room and went to bed like he does every day when the kids and I get home. He said ‘yeah you can go but I’m staying in here’ as in he wasn’t going to get up and watch them. WTF. So of course I loaded them up and we left.

I’m getting so snappy with my babies because of him and I just want to enjoy the 3 weeks I have left 😭 my oldest starts pre-k the same week I’m going in to have my csection and that’s just going to be another battle with my SO getting him to take her to school when he gets off work, 3 minutes down the road because I won’t be allowed to drive for a couple weeks.

Not to mention he doesn’t even act like he cares about this new baby coming, says he isn’t even going to take the week off to help me with her, only the day I deliver. 😧 He’s not interested in picking names or items that we need— hasn’t bought one single item, says ‘we have time, it isn’t like we can’t go pick up what we need’ 🙄 I’ve bought ALL the necessities and he hasn’t pitched in any. (We’ve been together 10 years but we keep our funds separate which usually works fine).

I just need a break from the stress and someone who actually cares about how I’m feeling for once 😭 So miserable physically/emotionally. Ugh.