PP depression

I need help y’all, this pp depression is kicking my ass and almost ruining my relationship with the father of my son. 2 months pp and I hate my self. 😭 I’m so mean and frustrated with every little thing and I really don’t want anyone to know on social media besides on here because I don’t want anyone to think I’m doing this for attention. I can’t even explain how I feel. I’ve lied to my OB about the questions she asks you when you go for your 6 week pp appointment. I thought it was getting better but everything is falling apart and I don’t know how to fix it. I can’t lose my family. He’s my world and I can’t imagine doing this without him. I need tips and just someone to tell me everything will be okay.