Only self pleasure 😬

Okay, soo, I have never had a guy give me good pleasure. I’ve had sex 2 times , and haven’t felt anything( besides the miny orgasms that consists of some tingles , but never from penetration) .Is it normal that I haven’t felt anything?? And when I do me, I use the shower head for direct simulation, so did I numb myself from anything less than water pressure???! So confused 🤦🏽‍♀️