Id like to be a pediatric nurse, or a veterinarian even though that takes literally years.. 7-9 exactly.. My real passion is in technology.. But I have zero confidence. I get excited to do things but the next hour, or day, Im crying because I feel like a fool. I couldn't even get over my anxiety with my last 4 jobs so how the hell could I do anything besides boil water. I feel so lost. Its been 10 years since my depression and Im so low that I havent called to get myself a doctor like I have needed to. I just have no one besides my mom it feels like, and I haven't seen her in over a year. I just want to give up, live in a ditch for all I care.