Lonely

Hey guys, I really haven’t been on this app for a while but I’ve been feeling really bad. I don’t know why all of a sudden I feel like I have no friends at all. I feel like the world is so fake and sometimes I think that maybe everything would be better if I just wasn’t alive. Of course I don’t have the guts to do it because of the damage I would cause and how I know I can help other people later on. I also think my parents don’t care about me like they used to, now that I’m 16 they don’t like talking to me but I also wouldn’t blame them cause I shut people out I also wouldn’t blame my old friends to why they don’t want to talk to me anymore because I don’t have the energy like I used to. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I want to be able to move out of my parents house and just live alone and take care of my shit, finally be in control