is there something wrong with me ? I am turning 18 in a few days and I have never had a boyfriend and it really lowers my self esteem like really bad.

but i guess I’ll start from the beginning so it makes since.

I lost my virginity my freshman year to a guy I had been in my mind “ talking “ to since 7th grade and he was one of the bad boys and he told me before anything happened that it wouldn’t lead to anything but me being me I thought I could change him.. well I didn’t and it really messed with me emotionally I didn’t have sex again until my senior year. it was at a party and I started going to more parties and you know the rest.

Well I downloaded the app tinder and i recently matched with this guy about 4-5 months ago and of course he would come over and we would have sex but we would talk and text and all that and well I got feelings and I believe at some point he wanted me too because I posted something on my story about wanting a boyfriend and he said something about it being him or something cheesy like that but we went from talking everyday to barley talking and it is killing me and I want to tell him how i feel but I am so scared of rejection from my freshman year like it terrifies me i honestly dont know what to do. Please help me