Can we love from first time


I loved my collegue he was a very nice and cute guy I loved him for 7 months and I didn't tell him

I tried to contact him but I think he asked me for sex indirectly I refused at the beginning then he asked again I accepted I am in love with him really it was a dream to have a Sex with him we had Sex twice

But the problem he only needs Sex he doesn't talk to me except when he needs sex I think he is abusing my emotions really I am depressed