i am 22 weeks and this entire pregnancy i have felt extremely depressed ( not suicidal) .. i have 2 girls and im expecting a boy the first month i was super excited to be pregnant and had been trying for months .. then reality hit my hubs fam started the pressure of it better be a boy ( as if i could choose) ... to top it of my hubs is not the excited type he doesnt get into my pregnancies and will not get excited till after baby is born ... so every time i show or say anything baby related hes not intrested ... i have not bought not one single baby item cause everytime i am hubs ends up saying i should wait ... i guess i just thought this last baby would be a bit different and there would be lots of exciment .. but i just feel alone in it and as if every one else is making the choices i wanted to make ( name . babyshower theme.. baby decor in nursery stroller carseat.. ect ect )

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