Worried about episiotomy

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I had an episiotomy on my first, my pushing stage was prolonged and I was very tired, so I consented to the episiotomy. After they made the incision he came with one push. However, the recovery was awful. I didn't feel right down below for about 2 years! It still feels achy sometimes. I tried the massage but find it too awkward. Anyone else worried about this? Or anyone have an episiotomy on first, but was ok in 2nd?