I’m being induced Monday with my second baby due to health reasons and I’m having a really hard time deciding if I want anyone other than my husband and three year old around our son for the first couple of days. Like for example, holding him, all of the over kissing and smothering him, for whatever reason it gives me anxiety. Maybe it’s due to the fact that with my first three years ago, she was taken from me immediately after delivery due to swallowing fluid and was in the NICU for ten days. I didn’t get to change her, feed her, have skin to skin or much of anything for that matter. Is it wrong of me to want to bond more with my son and little family as just us first??