I’d got to 11 weeks & 3 days when in fact my emergency scan showed that baby had only got to about 5 weeks and my body held onto it!!

(Which in itself is sh*t) so for 6 weeks I was carrying my dead baby with no realisation.

The reason for an emergency scan was because I had started to bleed a little bit. I had my scan on the 21st of June and then waited at the hospital because they wanted me to be operated on to remove the pregnancy tissue. But after 4 hours of waiting, the doctor came to see me and had decided that she wanted me to come back in a week for another scan to see if there was a heartbeat. Well that evening we got home from the hospital not really knowing what was going on!! But in the early hours of the morning (22/06) I started my miscarriage. I’d rang the hospital and they said they were happy for me to be at home and that I just needed to do a pregnancy test in three weeks to make sure it had all passed.

Anyway fast forward to July 8th and whilst at work I had the most terrible cramps which were so bad I fainted at work so my boyfriend took me to the hospital where I was told to suck it up and crack on!!! I was told that I will most probably bleed and have cramps for a total of 6-8 weeks. He preformed a pregnancy test which came back negative!

So yesterday 30th of July - I’m still bleeding and cramping, and this is what had come out!!

Please tell me this is normal? Please tell me it’s okay to still be bleeding like this!!

Then today (31/07) I had gone to the toilet and I had what looked like the foetus and maybe an umbilical cord - didn’t have my phone and just sat crying!!!

I’ve seen so many other women back on track to baby making and yet I’m having a constant reminder that I lost my little Tink!

If you made it down this far, I applaud you! It’s a long story but I feel as if my body has let me down and that I will never get my beautiful rainbow baby!!

Any help or encouragement would be appreciated!!

Thank you all 💕💕