Insomnia/Melatonin

Hi there. Has anyone had postpartum insomnia? I'm having a horrible time sleeping. My baby goes back to sleep after she eats at night but I just lay there awake... the last two nights Ive woken up at 1am and did not go back to sleep even though I'm exhausted beyond belief. This has been happening off and on for the last four weeks.

I'm anxious all night and stress about losing sleep which is just a self fulfilling prophecy.

I feel myself slowly sinking into a depression because I'm just so damn tired all the time and I can't function. Multiple times now I've been so tired that I forgot about bottles boiling on the stove. One of those times the nipples actually caught on fire. I'm so worried about myself.

I'm debating taking a melatonin but am scared it will make me too groggy to care for my baby at night. Or I'm worried I will wake up to feed her and then fall asleep holding her and put her in danger. My husband works nights so I am the only one home with her.

Someone please help me!

I am calling my doctor today as well to discuss options. I can't keep doing this. 😭😭😭