Birth control contributed to my ppd

hey mommies!

So I had my amazing son one year ago and had some physical struggles post partum related to the birth, didn't produce breast milk, and had some random sleep insomnia. So I wasn't feeling great for the first 6 weeks. I was in that new mom haze with tunnel vision on my son and, tbh, not as happy as I thought I should be.

My OB put me on the pill birth control and sent me on my way. I took my pills like a good girl for a year.

During this year I have been more anxious than I have ever been in my life. I was having panic attacks, intrusive thoughts, insomnia, constant daily diarrhea, and all around difficulty functioning. I feel like I was loosing my freaking mind all day every day. I wasn't happy with my house, my husband, my body, my job- literally everything stressed me out. I couldn't clean my house because then I'd get obsessed and I couldn't stop to eat or sleep or even go to the bathroom. I was a mess to say the least.

I got myself into therapy in January of this year to deal with a lot of this and then some other emotional garbage. I got put on anxiety medication.

But it never occurred to me that post partum, my body reacts differently to hormonal birth control.

The last month or so I've been wanting to get pregnant again because I still have a vision for my family. I went off birth control to start tracking with Glow.

I shit you not that the second my period post BC ended, it was like coming out of a fog. I literally felt like I was emerging from a dream.

For the first time in a year I feel human. I am happier. I still feel anxious at times and still have some difficulty sleeping, but it's a million times more manageable.

so basically what I'm trying to say is, consider everything you're putting in your body. our bodies are different now so we should treat them differently. be your own advocate, too.

Good luck mommies! you're doing amazing!!!!!