hate glow

since me and my partner have been trying to get pregnant I have been using this app, we have been trying for 17 months now... I just want a baby so bad... I feel like looking on this app everyday is killing me seeing everyone else with there faint postive test and wishing it was me... I have also recently read that because I had the implant that it is taking some women 8 year plus to get pregnant... I just don't know that got do tried everything ovulation sticks, having sex every day and I know it me that has something wrong as my partner already has a child... we haven't been to the doctors yet as in scared and my bf just keeps telling me that it will happen when it's the right time I feel like screaming at him I see all these people around me some that don't deserve children.. such as drugs addicts in my town who are having children why is god so unfair...