FTM: I’m due in about 4 days. Tonight, I tried to pump to induce labor. It definitely caused some mild period like cramps, and I’m currently experiencing my abdomen being very tight and rock hard. I’m not in pain or anything.

But holy cow, everything just brought on this overwhelming anxiety of being a mom and if we are really ready to have a baby.

A little background: this baby was planned. We wanted to have a baby because we feared that I may not be healthy enough to carry later on. My fiancé wanted to have a baby before he was 30. He’s currently 27 and I’m 24. We’ve been together for 5.5 years. We were originally going to wait another 2-3 years, but everything just fell into place and now was the perfect time. Both my sisters had all THREE of their kids by the time their were 25/26, so if they can do it, so can I? Idk.

I’m not sure what I am so anxious about. Considering I have 2 nieces and 4 nephews from the ages of 3-16, so I’ve been around babies my entire life.

I got so anxious that I looked at my fiancé and said, “I’m not going to try to naturally induce. She can come when she wants to!” And ran and laid in bed to type this.

My family has reassured me that I’m going to be a great mom. And I’ve cried to my fiancé that I hope I have the bond with my daughter that I don’t have with my mom (I love my mom, but she’s not really good at being emotionally supportive nor did I ever feel comfortable going to her for things...Like advice or even tampons...you would think a mother would ask if you needed any feminine hygiene products, but she never did? Then asked me why I was using her pads??? Um maybe because you know I get my period and you haven’t asked what I want to use or anything...even when I got comfortable asking...it seemed like a big deal) There’s just a lot of things I wish she would have done for me growing up that stem from emotional support, I guess.

I guess it’s normal first time Mom anxieties 😅😅😅 wanting to provide the best for my daughter, but fearing I won’t be able to? Someone tell me they’ve had somewhat similar feelings during their pregnancy 😩