No pleasure from masterbating?!?! Help

I’ve tried multiple times to feel pleasure out of masterbating but it just doesn’t happen. Penetration with my my finger does absolutely nothing and I can literally only fit two fingers. And anytime I play with my clit it just makes me feel like I have to pee or something.

I’ve never had sex and probably won’t for a while but in the mean time I want to play with myself. Is that so wrong? Why does my body hate me? Lol Not a legit question. I was kidding.

But does anyone else have this problem? If so do you have a solution? I can’t buy toys or vibrators or anything like that cause I’d have to hide them.

Sooooo... you know my dilemma. Any tips???