Today was the first time I talked to my boyfriend in 2 weeks. I guess earlier today he told his grandma he doesn't want any visitors and will not be coming back. Then he had a change of heart and wanted to talk to me, after weeks of being pissed off. He told me he's doing better, wants to become vegan, and will stay off weed cause apparently that was messing up his mind. He kept saying how much he loves me and was asking about the apartment I'm looking into and assuming he'd be there with me and wants me to see him. It breaks my heart, but I think I shouldn't see him and his grandma agrees. He says he's better now and wants to go to school, but mentally he has a while to go. Our relationship was toxic with some good moments, but I've been looking into these art groups and I really want to start going to them. I just feel like at this point well both hold each other back.

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I've been miserable for some time, want to make friends and go out, but I gave that up because of his insecurities. Originally on the phone a week ago he told his grandma he wants to move on and I respected that. They're giving him some meds, but I want to be the girl with friends who is going to art events and be a homebody as well. I think this time would be perfect for me to finish my real estate course and just get my life on track