I feel so bad about myself that I feel physically sick to my stomach. I feel like I’m ruining all my relationships and anything that could be good for me, even though I know that bringing up a small issue isn’t really going to ruin anything, especially because it’s been making me anxious. But I just feel so shitty about myself. I haven’t slept well for about two weeks, since remembering that my ex sexually assaulted me, and have been having dreams about him every night. I feel insecure all the time, and I don’t know how to get self confidence back. I really want to start college off well and I want to get back in the swing of things. I feel anxious about everything right now, and I wish I could stop feeling this way. I know it isn’t an accurate portrayal of how things actually are, but they feel like a bigger deal to me. I want to stop feeling anxious and get some self confidence back, and I want to learn how to have a healthy relationship with someone. Sorry for the rant, but I needed to say something and let it out.