So my husband and I have been separated for 2 months now because I was no longer happy with him. We’ve been married ( culturally not legally) for 5yrs and we have 2 kids together a 3yr old and a 1 year old. I gave him 5yrs to change his ways. He is lazy I’ve told him many times and he said he will change but never did. Chance after chance after chance I’ve always given him chances to change but never does. He said 5yrs isn’t enough time for him to change. And I said you had a choice to change but you chose not to change. After we left my best friend has been there for me and he’s made me realize that I need to love myself first before anything he’s been there for me through everything. And we just fell in love. That was right after my husband and I separated. I tried not to open my feelings to my best friend but it just happened he makes me happy he loves my kids as his own and he’s willing to move mountains for my kids and I. He’s in the military and so he’s not anywhere near where I live. But anyways my husband and I aren’t fully divorced yet we just separated because he can’t accept the fact that I want to leave him. So in my culture it’s all about reputation and so my parents are forcing me back to be with my husband when I want to divorce him but they said it’s going to be embarrassing for them to have a divorced daughter that has 2 kids. So now I’m so heart broken because I have to leave the person who makes me happy and is my happiness. It just tears me up inside because he’s everything to me and My kids and I am everything to him. Like me going back to my husband is just going to break me and my best friends heart so much. I’m for sure that when I go back to my husband I’m going to be thinking about him and he’s going to be thinking about me. I’m just so heart broken inside that I can’t live my happiness because of my parents reputation and my reputation. For mine I don’t care what others have to say about me. But my parents are worried about what people have to say about them. 😭😭😢 I’m just so sad that I have to go back to a marriage that died years ago.