I am due in 10 weeks and I have a lot of big decisions to make! I am in the process of attempting a home birth after my first was a csection 2 years ago. My biggest fear is something going terribly wrong. And that I will lose my life and leave my 2 babies and husband. I have no idea why this is such a strong fear my first birth wasnt super traumatic even though it was a csection. Please pray that i find more trust in God. I know ultimately he controls everything but the fears keep creeping in. I keep going to Mark 11 and I am trying so hard to remember to trust 100% but I feel as though my emotions are fighting with eachother. Thank you ladies!