I disappeared from his life...

My ex boyfriend and I were still meeting up although we broke up months ago... i still had a hope he’d come back to me as we were together for 4 years... he told me he wouldn’t be back to me and he only wanted me for sex but I tried convincing myself there was more... I planned a surprise for us both for a whole weekend and he left half way, said it was not meant to be... so I never ever messaged him again and I promised to myself he will never ever see me again!

He sent me this message a week ago, but I have not spoken to him or replied ever since he left me that day.... it’s been so hard to not text back but I want to seriously show him that he has lost me forever... altho part of me still thinks i should try again 😖