I feel like I’m at a loss in this situation, what should I do?

So, back story, over a year and a half ago my s/o of almost 5 years and I broke up. I wasn’t okay after the breakup. Like I couldn’t be alone and I couldn’t eat or sleep. I really have no family where I live so naturally I went to my bestfriend of over 10 years. She was living with her boyfriend, their almost 1 year old and his mother, and they took me in. I had my own room which was basically their extra room that they used for storage. And for the first 2 weeks of being there I brought my twin size mattress into their room and slept, so yeah, I wasn’t okay. I lived with them for about a month then her, her bf, their baby and me all got a place together. They were helping me, I was helping them, so we signed a 15 month lease. For like the first 6 months I paid half the rent because they needed help, it wasn’t an issue. And 4 months after we got our place I started dating my current s/o, which is kind of relevant later.

Fast forward to two months before our lease is up and I tell my bestfriend that I plan on moving out in one month and offered to help pay for the transfer fee of them moving into a smaller apartment. At that point we only had a month left on our current lease and the last month was to be prorated. They also planned on staying in the same apt complex and signing another lease. She actually seemed kind of excited to have me out because she’s trying to start her family and all, and I get that. She even marked it in her calendar.

So it comes time for me to move and she asks me for money, I said yes because I figured it was for the transfer fee. But before I gave it to her, I asked what it was for, and she told me that it was rent for the month that I wasn’t going to be there. We talked about it and I basically told her I wasn’t going to pay it when I wasn’t living there. She seemed upset & and I told her I didn’t want to cause any problems, but I didn’t agree with it. She said whatever and that was it. I could obviously tell she was upset so I gave her a couple of days to cool down. And at that point, I was pretty much moved out so she had her space.

So after two days she texts me and says I left a few things and when can I come get them. I go the same day and we talked.

We’ve been for friends for over 10 years & any fighting we’ve had has always been hashed out, especially at this point because we’re adults now. Well, I asked her if she’s still upset with me and she says ‘no, I’m just disappointed.’ I asked her why and if it’s about the money, I’ll just pay it because I don’t want issues. She says ‘you think this is about the money?’

uh yes? why else are you upset?

So she says ‘we took you in and got this place with you.. for you. So you could have a place to live too. We didn’t have to do that. We could have stayed living with his mom.

Now you’re leaving early.

We let you sleep with us for the first two weeks you lived with us.

You never cooked after you moved in and didn’t after we got our new place.

Then you started dating (my current s/o) and he was here all the time after I talked you about him being here so much.’

Some of these things had been talked about while we were living together and some things had not been talked about at all. I was at a loss for words. I told her that she seemed fine with me moving a month ago.

She said I would never understand her point of view and she would never understand mine. Then she said she needs time away from me. I teared up, because I don’t really see what I did wrong. I know there’s a lot to this and I tried to include all the back story I could so it makes some kind of sense..

It’s been almost two months now, & her birthday passed a week after all this happened. I took her a gift and a card to her work before she got there so it’d be waiting for her and she texted me that evening saying thanks & that’s been it.

What did I do?

Can I fix my friendship?

There’s something I’m not seeing here, please help. 😢