Performance anxiety or what?

My husband couldn’t perform today even with every trick in my book. But 5mins with some porn and he was good to go. 😑

Here’s the thing, today was our first IUI. We had to get his stuff. Period. It was DDay. He and I are both baptized Christians...which means we don’t do porn and have our own views on the matter. So today was rough. We tried at home a bunch and then at the doctors for over an hour. I was exhausted and so was he. I got so frustrated I said to just do it(watch the porn) and it went against my beliefs and feel awful but not as awful as I did the 5 mins later he was “finished” because some naked lady got him to do what I couldn’t. 😭 Feeling not good enough and ugly. Do you think he just had anxiety? I really dislike porn. I feel like nothing good comes from it and we just tried to make a baby using it.....😔😩😭